I am bored as hell.
The weather is awful today like it has been the previous days, it's cold, rainy and windy! What a good weather to light up my mood!

I wanted to keep reading Cuddys_House but I still don't have my new glasses and my head is hurting me by staring at my screen and my left eye, that is weaker that my right eye, is stinging and I can't believe I'm so bored that I come to talk about my eyes ugh!
But I want to read it because I started a month ago and it is amazing, in character, sweet, angsty, there are so many details and also there are discussions really interesting going on between House and Cuddy that don't exist in the other fanfictions about religion, hope, dream, differences between man and woman, love and I can't help reading it.

Also, I want other icons.
I have so many gorgeous icons I want to put on userpics.
I have a paid account on LJ and I can only manage 35 icons and I have to pay more to get more icons which is logic but the thing that is pissing me off that I have to paid $10.
It's not expensive but the fact I have to pay $10 just for icons it's stupid.
Plus my mom won't be agreed.
I mean I don't remember how much I paid for my account but LJ could put more than 35 icons with a paid account I don't know like 50.

Tonight I'm going to go out with my friends. I hope it's gonna be a good night.

Like every Tuesday I got up early to download "Ignorance is Bliss" in order to watch it after I come home.
And I was so pissed off because I didn't find a download link, I didn't have access to SeriesGringas.tv and ticcyyy , who had decided to go a little away from the fandom for a reason completely understandable, hadn't put a link either :(
Then I started looking for a link on google and I found one thanks god!

For this episode I had decided to only watch the first promo but I didn't read the other spoilers, I didn't watch neither the sneak peaks nor the other promos because I didn't want to be disappointed like I was for "Known Unknows" (I had read everything, watch everything related to the episode and I basically already knew the episode before seeing it ugh)!

After watching it, I have this feeling that I can't even put a word on it.
I am not disappointed and I am not excited. Actually the episode was really great.
The case was interesting but as always I was more centered on what was going on between House/Cuddy/Lucas.

I read that some people are blaming Cuddy or are pissed at her.
I don't really know why and I don't really understand it.
I can't believe that some great fan of the relationship between House&Cuddy can actually blame her like that! Just because she is trying to move on, doesn't mean that she doesn't make mistakes. House&Cuddy is my OTP okay, but I love this new arc with Lucas, we know that deep down within her he's not the right guy for her, she knows deep down he's not the guy she wants, but he's sweet, he likes Rachael, she cares for him and feels happy and I think this relationship is not really what she wants but what she needs, as a woman she needs to know that someone can care about her, that she matters for someone and that someone can love her and even if he is not House it feels good anyway.

I don't know what is going to happen, the only think I know is that this thing between Lucas&Cuddy will end at one time or another and will lead to something positive for House&Cuddy, I have not doubts about it, I trust the TPTB, well at least I hope I'm not wrong.

Perhaps I should go away from the fandom like ticcyyy is doing because this thing about blaming the characters of this show is beyond me, I don't get it, sometimes it makes me laugh because the next episode is not even aired that people are already complaining.

Ugh, and now I'm complaining about people who are complaining!
And I used too much the word "complain" in this post! I have to shup up!

Can't wait for the next episode!
AND OMG OMG OMG I ALSO CANT WAIT FOR THE EPISODE 14 AFTER READING THE INTERVIEW WITH LISA!

Good stuff:
I think I have finally find the job I want to do later.

It's been five years now that my family or my professors kept asking me "What is your project?" or "What do you want to do as a job?" and I kept answering "I don't know yet".
But now I have to make up my mind because this is my last year in high school and after I'm going to looking for a university or a specific school.

It's been five years since now that I start doing graphics, at first with Photofiltre ugh, and then with Photoshop. And then it occurs to me that I have always enjoyed doing this, so why not make this my job?

Film Editor, the more I think about it the more it seems clear to me. It's not really like the graphics with Photoshop, that's why I'm going to buy a Mac to install Final Cut Pro.
I never knew what I wanted to do and it began to scare me a little because really I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life.

Now I need to make an appointment with a guidance counselor. And the schools where I want to go check my report card, my grades, the assessments of my teachers and this is way more scaring because if I am below the required standard they won't let me going to this school.
Ugh, I need to think positive and be motivate!

It feels good to know where you are going with your life.

Sad stuff:
My friend Maïté.
I need to write this because her story makes me really sad and scared and with my other friends we really don't know what to do about this.
There is about one month I have found out that she has sunk back into her illness: anorexia.

( Need to tell about this )

Okay I'm exhausted and my bed makes eyes at me...
Kisses to everyone who happens to read my very interesting life ...

A bunch of all kind of icons:

1-4 Olsen Twins
5-6 Emma Watson
7-8 Kaley Cuoco
9-29 Lisa Edelstein
30-44 Olivia Wilde
45-47 Hugh Laurie & Lisa Edelstein
48-52 House & Cuddy
53-60 Lucas & Cuddy

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Okay, I have the right to have an opinion, everybody has the right to have an opinion, well at least should have to!

I'm not really a vegetarian, I don't have eating meat for more than five months now but I still eat fish I will not when I live by myself.

I don't even know how the conversation have ended up here but it had, so my mum told me "Oh but you're not going to eat fois gras for Christmas because you don't like meat now" and I was like "Well, it's not that I don't like meat, it's just on principle, ducks and geese are forced-feed and that disgusts me", and she was like "It's nonsense, nothing is going to change just because you don't eat meat, people have always eaten meat!", okay, you really want to go there with me?

"Perhaps, but it doesn't mean it will stay like that, more and more people become aware that animals are mistreated and," "It's not going to change, I KNOW it's not going to change", yeah because she KNOWS.

"Well, you don't know how the world will be in a hundred years and before they were not all the industries and animals were not mistreated like that, they were outdoors and raise in a natural habitat and they ate normally they were not forced-feed,".

"I SWEAR to you that it's not going to change, you're WRONG".
Yeah because she KNOWS everything "you are only seventeen and when I had the same age as you I also rebelled against everything".

Then I started crying because I felt belittle and because I am weak so she told me "And you're blubbering like a baby again, you really need to see a psychologist because this is completely crazy, each time we argue with you you start crying", this is true but I can't stop it, the tears flows by themselves.
I am so a weak person and when my mum or my dad start to argue with me I just feel helpless.

I was like "That is completely bullshit! Some people are forty years old and they are stupid and useless and don't believe in anything, so yeah, may-be I'm still a little girl who doesn't know anything at the life outside and who has stupid dreams but I form an opinion like other person! I have hope that the mentality of people can change, things can change. But it doesn't matter what I say or what I think because each time I try to tell my opinion or what I think you tell me that I'm wrong and that I am young. I can't even express my opinion because you said it yourself: you know everything and I am always the one who is wrong."

And she was like "I didn't say that I know everything,".
"Yes you did, you told me I was wrong and nothing is going to change, so it's mean you know what is gonna happen, you are superior and all I can do it's keep quiet and listen".

Then she tried to blackmail me by saying that "I was a pain" and if I kept going like this and talk to her like that she wouldn't take me to my yoga lesson, she is incredible!

Fortunately for me, my dad broke us off and told my mom that it was useless to blackmail me that I have the right to tell what I think. Thank you very much!
Ultimately, she took me to my lesson.

That just infuriated me!‎
The yoga calmed me down and has relaxed me but I'm really fed up of crying each time I demean myself before my parents, it's just beyond my control, I can't control my emotions so yeah I may have a problem but I don't want to talk with somebody, I want to move on and be strong and I don't want to be fucking emotional and weak anymore!